Whatever I can

There are several areas of my life that don't seem to be going the way I want them to. (Understatement!!) I won't go into detail on most of them.

However, today I finalized a change that is huge and NOT huge, all at the same time. I'm changing my work schedule, increasing each day by 90 minutes. The overall effect is that I work 30% more a week. And get paid for it, which is the main factor that pushed me to make this change.

I have plenty of mixed feelings about what this will do for my family life. For one thing, my kids won't come home on the bus anymore; they will be at an afterschool program while I'm still at work. Not much more time at work, just an extra hour and a half a day. Time that was more or less spent spinning my wheels waiting for one kid to get home, before I go get the other kid. Now I can just go get them both at the same place. I'll pay for that, but hey, in general there will be nooooo more crying when I try to do the bills, - so there's a plus. There will be less time playing and more time trying to get the laundry and the cooking and cleaning done. But I have two great helpers, so I think we'll be OK.

LeAnn Rimes - What I Can Not Change

I know what makes me comfortable

And I know what makes me tick

And I when I need to get my way

I know how to pull an ole fake

Cream and sugar in my coffee

Right away when I wake I face a day, and pray to God

I won’t make the same mistakes
All the rest is out of my hands

I will learn to let go what I cannot change

I will learn to forget what I cannot change

I will learn to love what I cannot change

But I will change, yeah I will change

Whatever I, whatever I can

Yeah I don’t know my father

Or my mother well enough

It seems like every time we talk

We can’t get passed the little stuff

The pain is self-inflicted

I know it’s not good for my health

Yeah but it’s easier to please the world

Then it is to please myself
All the rest is out of my hands

I will learn to let go what I cannot change

I will learn to forget what I cannot change

I will learn to love what I cannot change

But I will change, yeah I will change

Whatever I, whatever I can

Well I know I can’t care about how everyone else really feels

I have enough hurt of my own to heal

I will learn to let go what I cannot change

I will learn to forget what I cannot change

I will learn to let go what I cannot change

I will learn to forget what I cannot change

I will learn to love what I cannot change

But I will change, yeah I will change

Whatever I, whatever I can