Friday, December 10, 2010

NOW it feels like Christmas

The first batch of cookie dough I make every year is always this recipe. Butter, flour, sugar and walnuts. A splash of vanilla. Simple and delicious.

I don't eat many cookies during the year but my Danish recipes come out every December. Margarine just WILL NOT DO. Real butter, unsalted, to make extra sweet cookies. The best part about this particular batch is that since it contains no egg, I can sneak over to the refrigerator and break some off. Nom nom nom.

This time last year my own personal atom bomb was creeping up on me. The day I received my cancer diagnosis I had other cookie dough started; it would go from fridge to freezer to garbage can over a period of about 2-3 weeks.

I feel a little bit overwhelmed by the thought of making cookies this year. I'm not sure why; maybe a little bit of it is the extra time and effort - I still get tired fairly easily. But I know that I'm also still feeling the echoes of last year's sucker punch.

1 comment:

Trish said...

make the cookies...despite the effort...make 'em. eat them...give them to homeless people...take them to the infusion room for patients to eat...but make them.

make last year the only year you were suckerpunched and didn't make them. there are plenty of other traditions you CAN start...but stopping cookies? nah.

Things will get better... right?

I distinctly remember a day in... maybe February?  I remember the moment, but not what day it was. I was sitting at work thinking about plan...